New Baby Mambo

There's a little dance I've been doing lately. I've dubbed it the "new baby mambo." It's one of those one step forward, two steps back kind of dances with many dizzying twists and turns throughout.

It goes a little like this:

One step forward: Oh my! Oh my! There's a new baby coming to our house. Hooray!

Two steps back: OH MY! OH MY! She'll be here in THREE weeks! How will I ever get ready?

One step forward: I've done this six times before. There's no need to get ready. Babies come when they come and I'll get through this. I have before.

Two steps back: I'VE DONE THIS SIX TIMES BEFORE! Have I lost my mind? I haven't even had time to catch my breath from the last baby. How can I be ready for this one?

One step forward: A brand new life to cherish and care for--is there any gift God gives that is more precious?

Two steps back: A BRAND NEW LIFE TO CHERISH AND CARE FOR--ACK!!! What if I mess up? How can I care for one more soul when I already have so much entrusted to me?

Spin, spin...Twirl, twirl: Sleepless nights and busy days full of planning, waiting, wondering have consumed me for many weeks now. Will it ever stop?

Spin, spin...Twirl, twirl: SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND BUSY DAYS full of cuddling, nurturing and tending to my new little one will consume my future days. I wonder aloud, "Will it ever stop?"

And knowing all too well the fleeting nature of this time, I pray, Please, Lord, don't let me miss it. And the dance goes on.