Saturday, September 06, 2008

New Baby Mambo

There's a little dance I've been doing lately. I've dubbed it the "new baby mambo." It's one of those one step forward, two steps back kind of dances with many dizzying twists and turns throughout.

It goes a little like this:

One step forward: Oh my! Oh my! There's a new baby coming to our house. Hooray!

Two steps back: OH MY! OH MY! She'll be here in THREE weeks! How will I ever get ready?

One step forward: I've done this six times before. There's no need to get ready. Babies come when they come and I'll get through this. I have before.

Two steps back: I'VE DONE THIS SIX TIMES BEFORE! Have I lost my mind? I haven't even had time to catch my breath from the last baby. How can I be ready for this one?

One step forward: A brand new life to cherish and care for--is there any gift God gives that is more precious?

Two steps back: A BRAND NEW LIFE TO CHERISH AND CARE FOR--ACK!!! What if I mess up? How can I care for one more soul when I already have so much entrusted to me?

Spin, spin...Twirl, twirl: Sleepless nights and busy days full of planning, waiting, wondering have consumed me for many weeks now. Will it ever stop?

Spin, spin...Twirl, twirl: SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND BUSY DAYS full of cuddling, nurturing and tending to my new little one will consume my future days. I wonder aloud, "Will it ever stop?"

And knowing all too well the fleeting nature of this time, I pray, Please, Lord, don't let me miss it. And the dance goes on.


Anne said...

Oh, I know those feelings so well. Enjoy this time of turmoil! It will help keep you closer to Our Lord and His Blessed Mother.... and may that newest little Arkling arrive soon!


Laura said...

Sounds like lyrics for the next Marie Bellet hit it!

Becky said...

I love it. I can't wait for her to come home and hear all about it!

Life in Fitzville said...

So, so exciting!!! The kids must al be doing a dance of their own!

darci said...

yes, how often I miss the precious moments because of the busyness. So excited for you-she is coming home soon.

Easter A. said...

Hi Jane,
Very clever and how cute! Love that the dance goes on!

Eileen said...

I love this post. I remember those feelings so well, and I am so happy and excited for you!

We are definitely keeping you and your sweet little one in our prayers!

Dance on! :)


Ericka said...

ugh, I can so relate. Tho while we not counting down travel days (SOSOSOSOSOSOSO excited for you BTW!!!), adoption itself is just a rollercoaster. I was up at 3:30 worrying/thinking/fretting. And while I KNOW I shouldn't - I'm just way too human.....

Anonymous said...

I am so excited for you!!!!

anne marie